And Our Dream Becomes a Reality...

It was the morning of May 21st, 2011 that we found out that we were finally going to be blessed with a child of our own. After nearly 2 years of trying to conceive, 1 miscarriage, fertility medicine, and two rounds of artificial insemination later...We finally got that positive test that we had dreamed of for what seemed like an eternity. I remember just knowing that the test was going to be negative. I didn't feel any different, and to be honest, I had almost lost all faith by this point. We were to the point of thinking that maybe a child of our own might have to be adopted or given to us in another way. We were losing faith...fast. I woke up earlier than James that morning. As a matter of fact I don't think I slept that entire night. My fertility doctor told me that I could not test until Saturday morning. Thinking that I was going to be disappointed by yet another negative test, I went in and took it alone. I paced the living room over and over, shaking and feeling short of breath, as I waited to walk back into the bathroom. When I entered into the bathroom, I closed one eye and stood far away from the test, almost as if I were trying to "peek" at something that I shouldn't have been looking at. I fell to my knees-sobbing, laughing, all at the same time when I saw BOTH lines. Both lines meant that this girl was pregnant! I ran to the bedroom to awake James. He thought I was kidding at first, but then could see the pure, real joy in my eyes. He jumped up, we embraced, and it was all we could talk about the entire day, and for days to come. We had finally conceived a child together.  Although we knew to proceed with caution, knowing that road was going to be long...we were plagued with uncontrollable joy and happiness. I went from a woman to a "mother" in the instant that I read those positive lines on the pregnancy test. I could almost feel the little life stirring inside of me...

Love,
Mommy