The Morning Of Your Birth...

We went for our weekly check up on January 24th, 2012 around 9:00 AM. It was one week until you were due! It just so happened that you decided otherwise. While the doctor was checking me, my water broke , and we were headed to the hospital. When my water broke I immediately busted into an uncontrollable sobbing cry. It was in that moment that this all became real. It was as if the last two years, all the pain and heartaches, joys and happiness..Our entire pregnancy, everything. It all came down to this moment. This was the moment of truth and the thought and idea of you, suddenly became a forcible reality. Although I had waited for this day for what seemed like eternity....I was SCARED. Your dad and our doctor, Dr. Jessica Bowers, both hugged me while I cried all while trying to encourage me that I was going to do great and today was the day we would finally meet you. 

By the time I hit the parking lot, the scared feelings were turning to excitement. 

I began making the phone calls and we headed to the hospital. 

We arrived at St. Clare around 10:30 AM that morning. 

The nurses got us checked in, got the medicine going in my I.V. and we began to wait. 

By 4-5 centimeters, I needed the epidural. My entire pregnancy I was so scared of getting this. I worried about all of the things that could possibly go wrong.

 It did hurt, but was not nearly as bad as I had previously thought.

The epidural had me pain free for the next couple of hours and until I hit about 8 centimeters.

 My labor was progressing pretty quickly, much quicker than they had anticipated. 

Once I reached 8 centimeters, I went into severe back labor. I was in so much pain, but was unable to move because of the heavy amount of epidural that I had received. The pain sent me into a panic attack, and before I knew it they had an oxygen mask on my face to supply my oxygen in hopes that it would lower my heart rate. This scared your dad and our family. It was no big deal though, the doctor's needed to be sure you were safe!

Things were getting intense, and you were coming very soon. It was almost surreal. I sat there and thought to myself  "In about 30 minutes or less, I am going to be a mom. This baby is going to be born to me." I remember having a flash of flooded worry. Was I going to be a good mom? Were you going to be a good baby? Would you grow up to be successful? Would I be able to provide you with everything you needed? The thoughts flooded my brain....that was until another contraction came. Then the pain flooded my brain!

Although labor was not "fun" by any means, it was an incredible moment in time that I was able to experience with your dad. His eyes lit so bright with excitement, his voice and the way he talked to our family and friends told me just how incredibly excited he was to meet you. It was an awesome feeling to see him in that way. He coached me through the entire process and did whatever he could to ease my worries and my pain. He counted through my contractions, and he was so eager to watch you come into this world. 

It was a side of him I had never seen in the almost 12 years that we have been together. 

Your entire family, and our closest friends were there in the waiting room so excited to see and meet you...

You were a celebrity of sorts.


Love,
Mommy